Showing posts with label Testimony. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Testimony. Show all posts

Friday, May 11, 2012

Start of a New Journey




It is amazing to look back at these last two and a half years and see how God has worked in my life as I attended CSB/SJU.  I remember walking into my first Theology class not knowing what to expect; little did I know that in these classes I was going to meet God in a serious, real, and relevant way.  Going back to school was initially an intimidating thought to me since I had been out of formal schooling for three years.  But the timing was right.  I had recently went through a confusing and humbling life experience and only God knew that I needed a fresh start, a chance to grow and heal, and ultimately cultivate my relationship with God in a way I had desperately needed for a very, VERY long time.  Being unsure of what to expect in this new learning environment, I remember instantly feeling at home in the Theology program.  I knew that this was where God wanted me at that specific time of my life and in January of 2010, my theological journey began. 

I do not remember exactly when I was first introduced to St. Anselm’s definition of theology, but it defined my theological journey quite well: “Faith seeking understanding.”  I was not looking to be spoon-fed what to believe anymore, but to wrestle with and work out my understanding of God and my relationship with God.  In the Theology program at CSB/SJU, I found the challenge, the encouragement, and the openness I needed to flourish in my intellectual and spiritual journey.  It was not easy at times but I learned to truly appreciate what I believe and it opened my heart to what God was calling me to do.  It was evident that God was using my professors and fellow theology majors/minors in a mighty way in my journey at CSB/SJU.  I am so thankful for them and I know that is was by no mistake God brought them all into my life.  My fellow sisters and brothers in Christ from varying denominations opened my eyes and heart to a wider and clearer understanding of what it means to be a part of the Body of Christ.  The challenges and differences that we grappled through only made our unity is Christ stronger and for that I am so very thankful.  You all helped to paint a beautiful and colorful picture of the diversity of God’s people.  Thank you for getting me out of my theological bubble; I count you all as blessings in my life.     

Some may be asking, “What to do now?”  It is quite clear that God has called Riley and I to stay in St. Cloud for the next year.  God opened and closed doors and we believe that this is a year of waiting on the LORD for our next move.  The LORD has given me the wonderful opportunity to work with fantastic people at Central MN Youth for Christ and some amazing young ladies at BRAID.  I am excited to see what the LORD has in store for this year!  I know that right now God is personally calling me to ministry with these young ladies and I praise the LORD that I get to have another year with them.  When the timing is right, I know God will make it evident when I am supposed to go back to school, but for now, youth ministry is where my heart is at and CSB/SJU has fully equipped me for this vocational calling. 


Once again, I just want to thank all of my theology professors for the passion, intelligence, and vigor that you instilled into me as your student.  I pray that you know you are making a huge difference in the lives of many individuals.  Thank you to all my fellow theology majors and minors for learning alongside of me and being some of the most inspiring young adults that I have every met.  Thank you to the people at Youth for Christ for making me feel at home there and constantly encouraging me in my faith, work, and ministry; I look forward to our next year together.  Thank you to my wonderful husband, friends, family, and in-laws who have been supportive in my academic and spiritual journey.  Mom and dad, I know that you are proud of me and that means the world to me.  And last but definitely not least, thank you God for being forever faithful to me and for Your continual guidance in this ultimate journey called life.

-Pippa Quiram 

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

In the Quiet, You are there...



"Listen ... with the ear of your heart."
Rule of St. Benedict Prologue


            I attended “Come to the Quiet” retreat at the Episcopal House of Prayer last Friday with fellow Theology students and Faculty.  I just wanted to share a little bit about my experiences of this evening.  It was so needed! I have been working my butt off this semester by taking 4 upper division theology courses and an upper division German history course (A lot of reading and writing!).  God has really allowed me to stay somewhat sane through all of this! Anyways, this retreat was so beneficial and allowed students and faculty to come together in prayer, reflection, and fellowship.  What a wonderful relationship we as students have with our awesome faculty!

            What I want to share with you all is the reassurance and love God gives to all of us.  As I have been on my faith and educational journey, I often feel like the rebel child in my family and church family.  I love my Evangelical background and it has really embedded value and worth of my faith in Christ, but I cannot help but feel that I have, in some way, stepped outsides of their “ideal” plan for every Christian child.  I’ve always felt that if I did not go to an Evangelical college and marry the “perfect” evangelical husband, that I am not in God’s plan.  Now, I’m probably just exaggerating some of my family and church’s uneasiness and dissatisfaction, but I cannot embellish the feelings I have when I encounter this.  I get the feeling that since I chose to attend a Catholic college and married a Christian man who does not necessarily consider himself Evangelical, that I must not be doing anything God-glorifying.  This is often the kind of recognition I feel that I get from some of my family and church.  Well, Friday evening at “Come to the Quiet” retreat, God gave me reassurance that I am on the right path … 


            When we were praying through a scriptural passage, Sister M. would read a part of the passage, be silent, and then ask a question to guide us in reflection.  During this she asked, “What would you like to tell God?”  At this point of the reflection, I was enjoying the peacefulness of this style of prayerful mediation, but then the next question is what stirred my spirit.  Sister M. then asked, “What would God like to tell you?”  I have never thought of it in this way before.  I have always concerned myself with what others thought of me and of course I always considered the will of God, but I had never thought to ask God what He wanted to tell me.  At that moment when I asked God this question, I was overcome by God’s Spirit and this overwhelming sense that God was so proud of me … I cannot even come close to accurately describing this in my limited human expression.  I was reassured that I am not a disappointment in God’s eyes and that I am where I need to be and doing what I need to do, and that God is glorified by my life and my hunger to know and understand Him better.  It was as if God had spoken directly to my heart.  What an amazing thing it is to be able to have such a wonderful and powerful relationship with our God. 

             At the end of the evening, I was (and still am) so thankful for the people God has brought into my life.  I am blessed by the community I find in my fellow theology students and the theology faculty.  No matter the denomination, I consider you my sisters and brothers in Christ and I value your unique walk with God.  Thank you for your support and encouragement.  To my family and Church family, I hope you do not find any offense in what I shared about feeling like a disappointment to you.  I love you all dearly and hope that you can see the Jesus in me and how He is continually shaping and working in my life.  I know God has big plans for my life and I am so thrilled!  Thanks to everyone who reads my blog.  I know I just started it but it is a wonderful way for me to share my life and my journey with all those I care about.  May God always be your Assurance and Salvation. Peace and Blessings,
                       -Pip Q.

Ubuntu
"I am what I am because of who we all are."


UPDATE:
            My initial Thesis presentation to the Department of Theology went really well! I had good feedback and support from the faculty.  I also felt God’s hand in it the whole way, which was the greatest encouragement of them all!  I was able to share my research with passion and vigor.  If not noticed from the previous post, the title of my Thesis is “I Will Not Be Silent” – that was totally a Divine inspiration because I had no idea what to call me thesis and then it just plopped in my lap! Also, my fellow classmates had wonderful presentations as well. Praise be to God!

**Link to a virtual tour of Episcopal House of Prayer**